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✭ Emelda William ✭

Just called me Mel. From Kuching Sarawak, mix bidayuh, 24 y/o and studied Cognitive Science in Universiti Malaysia Sarawak. Simply living my life to the fullest and dreams. Dreaming to have Master and Ph.D. For surely someday I'm a future lecturer :)

She's Arya. From Bau Sarawak, mix bidayuh, 21 y/o and post graduated from AUCMS Penang. She's my real best friend that I ever had :)

All about my feelings

Wednesday 3 October 2012 ♥0Comment♥

Hello awesome silent reader !! Hmm just wanna share with u guys about what I'm feel now . Since last week I felt pressure , plus jenis saya yang like to thinking ni make me more tension until I'm crying when suddenly sad . Maybe perception of other people around me especially friends tengok saya ni jenis yang happy go lucky always , but in a deep of my heart no one know about it . Only a few of my friend knew my real feeling . Last Friday night , I don't know what make I felt sad until crying dalam bus masa on my way balik dari library . Sampai aja dari bilik , I still crying again and again until saya tertidur . Semalam pun masa terjaga dari tidur , saya pun nangis . I don't know why I'm tension . Ya , kerana rasa down bila banyak diberi pilihan sama ada go to interview tu or focus my midterm exam , lebih-lebih lagi bila banyak orang kata belajar tinggi-tinggi pun belum gerenti dapat kerja . Why dorang suka berfikiran singkat ni ? Nasib baik my love pahamkan saya and always give his support to me . Also my friend Doulus yang sekarang ni sambung his study dalam Master level in my campus . Respect sama dia and dia pun minat mahu jadi lecturer , yang juga sama cita-cita just like me . Betul kata dia , jika kita ada impian and try our hard to reach our dream , tiada apa yang mustahil tu . Saya memang suka study since dari primary school lagi until now . And saya pasti Tuhan sentiasa bersama saya and mendengar doa saya setiap masa .

Second , about midterm exam . Oh my God , I realise that 2 weeks more I will facing my first paper - Discrete Math . Why masa cepat berlalu ? Dalam tak sedar bulan ni saya ada midterm exam . Seriously , I still not get ready yet . Every of courses yang saya ambil ni , saya still dalam keadaan blur , means ada certain yang saya not understand lagi . Plus , assignment pun dah bermula . Arghh . . saya must manage my time wisely starting from today . I really hope I can pass in midterm exam . Hmm takut juga if fail ni , because akan bawa effect ke final exam . Hopefully I can do my best for my final exam . Hmm ok la , I think sampai di sini saja la yang dapat saya share with you all . Ada masa saya akan update lagi , ok ? Doa la untuk saya agar saya lulus dalam midterm exam tu kelak . God bless you all :)